It's been a long time since I've written a journal entry but I'll try my best to keep my personal life out of this blog maybe.

For this dream (which is crystal-clear in memory I think), I was watching an obscure ARG/unfiction webseries about someone documenting his exploration into the woods at night. The protagonist had a purple flashlight and the only monster in this series I can recall is a weird puppet creature on all fours (kinda like Mama from that one Silent Hill arcade game but looking like Pinochio). Apparently, this monster came from a mansion but more on that later. The cameraman appears to be looking for something other than the monster I think.

Then it switched to me flipping through various videos on Youtube. I then stumbled upon a lost Mario Plush video (not really) I remember from my childhood that I thought I would never see in the light of day. It was a halloween special thing in which Mario & Luigi go through a haunted house inhabited by Chucky (yes, the doll) to save Princess Peach. But this post is about my dream, not the video, so I'll just skip.

Before I even got to watch that video again, I opened a new tab and clicked on another video. It's a song rendition that I can't recall but it had a creepy animatronic dragon I think. It looked dead on the inside, stuck on a goofy smile for the duration of the song. Near the end however, as I scroll down to the comments, the dragon's face quickly switched to just a vertical mouth with sharp teeth as if zalgofied(?). I checked the channel and the owner apparently makes some FNF renditions too.

Then suddenly, the dream jumpcut to me looking through a certain game developer's portfolio (not saying who) and dancing to some furry art made by the artist while pretending I was as my fursona. The song I danced to is named Mercury by Sub Urban (its beat is catchy as hell).

Then it switched back to the ARG in the beginning. The explorer reached a concert stage of sorts in the woods and then heads somewhere far away into a parking lot with cars (some empty, others aren't as people came out). I was enthused with excitement about this scene. There, he discovers a tall mansion with the look of a cottage and a blue Kami iluminating around the building while floating. He enters the mansion with other people.

The inside of the mansion is actually a Little Nightmares-themed escape room/haunted house attraction, with a skeleton receptionist welcoming everyone and have them sign a contract. The skeleton appears to be forgetting something until he remembers and rushes to a skeleton couple with japanese-style talismans on their foreheads who had just get out of a room alive like there was something dangerous they avoided there. The receptionist takes the husband's talisman as he vanishes, leaving the wife confused and alone. With the talisman in hand (apparently about to put it on our foreheads), he had them sign the contract.

The dreams ends on a sudden positive note however, as it jumpcuts to me and my dad checking out a new museum in our neighbourhood (it was like that one Big Fun Museum we went to in Barcelona) but before we even got to start our tour, I woke up and got ready for another dreadful day at special education school with the cult.

Yes, I no longer like it there...

Today I've found a list outside where I live.

It lists traits and chararistics of someone and a series of apartment numbers like a detectice would write. They're marked with either a check or a X.

On the back is a graph containing the pros and cons of "sharing the flat, being an only child and having exams be abolished". I'm not sure if I can share the photos though.

Might belong to a college kid or something.

I saw the moon tonight and as I gaze into its glow in the night sky, iluminating the city in the dark, I felt tears running down my eyes. I wish I could embrace and bask in its glow but I am torn like everyone else, no white for myself.

I wish I could go outside and stare at the moon's glow forever or maybe howl at it even though I would be all alone.

Sorry for being gone again, I keep forgetting the existence of this blog and I'm also very sorry for last post, I'm still depressed af.

Anyway, last night I had two dreams that were very recent and so vivid so I figured I need to type them out here as fast as I can.

The first one I had, I was watching a old Youtube ghost video featuring the La Seu cathedral at night and there appear to be a strange red dot peeking from one of the building's sides. The video called it a sighting of "Slender Man" or something like that, I can't remember what exactly the video calls it as.

Moving on, on the recommended bar there was a selection of strange videos which appear to be Lost Episodes creepypasta recreations. The most memorable in my dream is Mariachi.avi. However, rather than watching the video I simply hovered my mouse to the thumbnail to preview it, but it oddly changes everytime to a different clip.

First clip is some weird image of Juan Carlos Bodoque from 31 Minutos hanged(?) by a group of balloons as he lefts into the air through indistinguishable static background with subtitles on the bottom saying something I can't remember aswell, but I believe they said something about Bodoque leaving this world maybe.

Second clip is the same as above but the background is some edited Tom and Jerry cartoon with blood added to it I guess (Warner Bros: Splatter, anyone?), again in static filter. Third and last clip were shots of Bodoque talking close to the camera as his face distorts into a white, stretched, ghostly visage with empty eye sockets by another staticky background that looked like to be Spongebob.

I have a feeling Vibingleaf or some other Creepypasta Retake tuber will find out about this one.

Anyway, next I was outside and we were in a battle in some rock formations in the middle of some sea we do not recognize, they look like they were built in Minecraft though the details are more Roblox-like. I drank some water that had Mariachi.avi in it and was warned that the water was diseased/poisoned shortly after.

Anyway, moving on to the next dream. Me (as Cody but in a wetsuit) and a group of strangers were taking a boat trip to the exact same rock formations from the previous dream. No battle this time just exploration.

We were actually in a river by the countryside around the fields. I think I fell into the water and shifted to my aquatic form shortly after. I looked around underwater, it was all just blocky rocks lie in Minecraft and I think there was a screen that displayed blue swirly graphics?

Once I looked at everything, I swam back to the surface. However, I think a ghost girl appeared and it upset me but I continue to swim back up anyway.

I was back up with the group, interacting with them in my normal form (I was using chat in Roblox for some reason). We spot what we assumed to be a hobo in the distance doing something as we commented on him.

When I told one person in the group about my aquatic form in voicechat like them, they didn't believe me so they threw into the water as a prank but... the water is gone, so I hit on rouch blocky stone instead.

There I discovered a hidden entrance to some tiny apartment, thing is I went there with my dearest friend Luna.

We explored inside, there's a small bedroom with bookshelves that has Disney-themed figurines lined up on them (but notably there were no figures of the protagonists leading me to believe that it could refer to me as one, I got that idea from a Silent Hill analysis video). One of these figures is the Big Bad Wolf in a Jack Skellington costume. There was also a card that said "MAKE MISTAKES. MAKE WORSE." both in English and Portuguese, it is this that we eventually figured out we're actually in Brazil unfortunately.

We then went to the balcony where I see my neighbourhood from real life and the moon descending behind the buildings, so we quickly took a picture of it with my phone and I believe an accident happened shorty after(?).

Anyway, finally we went to the last room adjacent the other balcony before waking up. It was a door with a videogame poster on it featuring two characters who look a lot like Popeye. The dream then became a Cuphead-styled RPG boss fight as these two characters. I don't recall much of the attacks but one of them is called "BIG BODY BANG SLAM" I believe.

Following this was a menu screen of concept art and that's when I woke up.

Man, this was probably the longest dream I had so far and I'm very glad it's still vivid to my head.

I guess I wanna recreate Mariachi.avi as a legit Retake video but who knows. Anyone wanna take the challenge?

Anyway, here's what Cody looks like in that wetsuit incase you, whoever is reading this, are curious:

This is an interesting dream I completely forgot about writing but thankfully here we are, sharing this one that still fascinates me to this day.

So, I dreamed I was exploring my city alone at night, trying to get back home. It felt like a video game, I wandered through enclosed street spaces reminiscent that of Tokyo (I live in Spain) and ascended some stairs.

One part that really stuck with me was when I found myself walking on top of some tall medieval styled walls enclosing a very wide lake, the street lights were orange-y. It was dark so I had a lantern with me. Behind the walls and beside me was mainly a very dark landscape with mountains of streets on the sides and I swear I could see the silhouette of a three-story tall house in the middle.

Anyway, I managed to go back home and then it cut to some clips from Alice in Borderland that I absolutely never saw during my rewatch weeks ago. There's one with this Smile Dog-ish creature sitting on a kitchen counter and you can hear one of the Citizens (one who isn't in the show) talking about being tired of having to deal with the creature after winning one of the games in the previous Immigration Cycle as a prize. That's when I wake up.

As for the wall walkway, it was in a blocky U shape.

This dream is truly one of the finest examples of Spiritcore/Nocturnal Liminality

my biological mommy is an evil judger and an alternate from mandela catalogue.

she will take away everything from me and my memories too

Roblox is now a dictator political state. And I don't like politics.

Let me play in peace.

I don't know what the hell happened to me. :/

Last night I had a dream where I was watching another episode of Miraculous: Bonds Beyond Fate (a fan rewrite of the show itself). Details are kinda fuzzy but I'll try to summarize as best as I can.

So in this episode, Andrien is in some kind of circular bomb shelter and then he touched something? Then it switched to Code: Lyoko for some reason (possibly because the creator of Miraculous worked on it), Ulrich is notably missing. There was a scene featuring a street in real life (looks familiar but don't really recognize it) and then the gang find themselves in some kind of swamp-like dimension where they fading glimpses of Ulrich waving around, except that he looks wrong...

Ulrich looks deformed and zombie-like (like that one episode where Xanna causes a zombie outbreak) and is like the Boomers from Left 4 Dead. Jeremy then exclaimed "There he is!" and the rest is blurry but short until I wake up.

Anyway, this weekend I went to a christmas light walkthrough attraction in a closed waterpark at night. The whole place after hours feels very liminal and Spiritcore-ish like one of those dreams I had, and I liked it for those but sometimes it can be creepy because some attractions are in the dark and abandoned and as such they look unnerving like a specific Disney creepypasta. The pools are also empty too, devoid of water. I took some photos there of course and showed it to my friends.

Anyway, I now have a Christmas gift to my friends that I can't wait to deliver tomorrow! ^w^

Another dream from days prior, this time I think I was in a garden with a pool or river. I dove underwater there, and where I realized I was lucid dreaming I tried to make myself aquatic there, watching as my feet sprouted into diving flippers like in the movie. Sadly, I never got to swim underwater with it.

Today, Mom threw away my blue Robbie the Rabbit (from Silent Hill) doll into the trash because she thinks it's "dead" and delusionally thinks that I'm being possessed by Satan or whatever demon that lives in Hell.

The doll doesn't matter to me though, it's just a collectible from my favorite horror game franchise and doesn't really define who I am, I can just buy another one if I want. Still, dad thinks it's very important and had a massive arguement with my mom. I don't like that they were fighting over a dumped possession of mine...

At least I got Yokai Watch now.